I haven't been one to talk to lately. When shits happen, I am so quick to throw everything away and hide in my safe place. I cut off all communications and push every god-damned thing that comes my way. I didn't need any wise words or cheering up, I just needed time alone. Yes, I am selfish like that.

As horrible I can be, not to mention a huge asshole I am, there are that selected few who made damn sure they try harder to connect with me. And I'm thankful, really. It assures me that I haven't fucked up completely.

I remember telling myself early this year to be nicer to people but lately it's been so hard.