When my sister tells me certain advices, I'd made damn sure to follow them because I have confided in her for many, many problems and she has never ever failed me so her words gotta mean something hence when she told me to stay far away from you, I think I'mma do just that.

You're like the swing set and I'm the kid that falls. You're the kind who wants to try his luck and test my limits, you want to cross the boundaries, play the hit and run game and win the best of every worlds.

But baby, you're not getting it from me.

Khabir says:
HAAHAHAHA
then when he gatal w the other girls you tak jealous?

d to-the-double e. says:
it affects me lah, but but but i usually don't let it get to me.
i shrug things off - that's how i roll!
:D

Khabir says:
yaaaa
but you cant keep on doing that
he's just making use of you sia like that
you're better than that
why allow such ppl to do such things to you
but if that's how you roll then sembaraaaaannngg
hhahaha

This is why I love getting opinions from my guy friends because guys think differently from girls. Sometimes we, girls, tend to give a whole lot benefits of the doubt. Knowing what certain actions/behavior means from the point of view of a guy, keeps me in place. Least I know, not to raise my hopes high :)

I don't think I'm into you but I like the idea of you being around and I should really start differentiating whether I really have a thing for you or do I just like your attention.

See I told you, disappointment is a constant. Let's face it - there's no such thing as forever. People are always going to leave you for something better and they're not going to have any qualms about it until their "something better" leaves them for "something much better".

That's how life works and like it or not, we gotta deal with such situations. But why can't people just stop to think that hey, I'm hurting the people who loves me and maybe I should be considerate and think in their shoes instead. But no, instead they go on being oblivious and ignorant and merry about their lives.

Screw them.

I remember telling myself once to eliminate the people who shed negativity in my life. But why is it hard to toughen up against the closest people around you.

I don't know why you gotta act the way you are but it is so hurtful at times and I don't know why I let you get to me because I don't deserve this. If I'm bearing the brunt of your insecurities then screw all of this - I am a friend not your competitor nor your fiend.

I feel judged and competed around you that it makes me feel sick because friends are supposed to make you feel good but you always, always have a way to bring me down. I don't know what you wanna prove but if you wanna be the better one of us all, then go ahead. I never liked the limelight, I just want to lepak and be happy.

Honestly, that's all I want.

Finding a job sure is tough. I've been through three interviews so far and none has gotten back to me. It's pretty depressing but that's how it works isn't it? It's pretty crappy how the gahmen says that the employment sector is picking up because even if companies are hiring, they're all looking for experienced employee.

So where does that leaves us, the fresh graduates, with nothing to our name?

Despite my futile attempts in getting a job, I've not regretted my decision to leave my previous company without securing another job first. Leaving was so much easier than staying on and trying to make it work.

I don't think anybody understands the amount of thoughts I have within. Even I don't get myself. I am constantly thinking that it's starting to toll on my body. I paid a visit to the doc yest and he says I've been exhausting myself too much. Now that's kind of funny considering I am currently unemployed, hah. But really, on a serious note, I have so many unresolved issues and it's eating me up slowly.