Here's the thing, if you think you're facing shits, you're not alone. That's what I gained out of today, besides the breakup sex thingy, of course. HAHA. So you see, I'm eighteen this year and rightfully (or that's what I like to believe) girls my age have much freedom to go wherever they wish, club, stay out and not come back, whichever you like. Unfortunately I don't have the liberty to do so because I have Mr and Mrs Conservative as my parents. Not that I'm complaining, but it would be nice to y'know get out of the comfort zone and just go wild for one night? But you see, I'm not alone. There are many other individuals with my same plight, or even worse off. So I'm thankful, that even when my parents tend to go hard on me, they still leave some space for me to voice my opinions and hear me out. Well they do give in on most occasions and for now, I'm satisfied with that. Maybe we should go slow on me venturing out? Parents too need time to digest certain issues, no?

Anyways on a lighter note, impromptu plans after training with the gang to catch The Coffin (which sucked balls by the way). As soon as training ended, I received missed calls from B and apparently Haikel and her were bored so they decided to catch a movie: The Coffin. Coincidentally Gal and Caliph wanted to catch that show and Gal dragged Derrick along. I made plans with Luqman a couple of nights ago on catching the show as well. So in a nutshell, 7 of us caught it together. Not worth spending 6 bucks on it, honestly. B to the ORING. Yeah, there were your typical shocking moments but nothing great and the ending sucked even more.

Crashed B's place after the movie. It's nice to have a best friend who loves dolling up because she'll help you do your necessaries like, trimming your eyebrows hahaha!

Okay time to crash and burn. Much love babies!

Glad that Professional Profiling is sooooo OVER.
Hopefully I can pass this though, considering the rubbish answer I gave the assessors earlier.

Assessor: So you mentioned about wild theme(s) and your target audience are 3-6 years of age. I mean, how wild can they get...?
Me: EHHHH you never know!

What kind of answer is that!?!
-__-"

I checked for the assessor's comments at the portal and honestly, I don't know if it's good or bad. Mixture of both? Just waiting for my advisor's comments. Hopefully it's gooooood, please.

Okay let's heck about this because (1) it's over (2) there's nothing much I can do now right? So let's relax jack now and think about the remaining days of the holidays. Yawns. Morning training tomorrow. I think I lead a pretty sad life. I need more experiences, more first-times, more adventures, more more more!

Somebody blow me away, quick.

I sat at the bus stop alone, all drained and sore without a sense of direction. That's when I realised you were never there. I've always imagined you coming to my rescue whenever shit happens, telling me that I'm just going into overdrive, that I should stop being so paranoid and that things are going to be just fine. But that never did happened and I'm still sticking around, wishing otherwise.

Maybe I was never good for you to want to hang around?

One week holiday and back to the late nights habit. Actually I don't know what I'm doing up so late at this hour because there's nothing much you can do? You surf here, surf there, it's the same darn thing anyway. Might as well conserve that energy and go to bed, right? But my eyes are so disobedient! Maybe I should send them away to the naughty corner, hmmm.

Theweekends were tiring, like usual. What else? Sunday was dedicated to my aunt's engagement ceremony where I spent half of the time napping away. So burok, I know. But what can you do when you have the whole rombongan of the other party in the living room, eating away? There's nothing you can do except hide in the room and sleep, or you can always help out in the kitchen which is pretty nyehh, seriously. Okay that's because I'm lazier than lazy, haha! Oh wells, not like I am the only one idling away because if I recalled correctly, my sister was beside me watching Friends on the psp whilst I was dozing off. HAH! We are such pemalas besar.

After the ceremony ended, we zoomed home, changed out of our baju kurong(s) and rode down to Parkway Parade for a little shopping. Retail theraphy is so syiiiiok, it would even be more syiok if I had more ka-chings but too bad so sad, I've got limited moolahs so I can only do limited shopping. Me is a sad-sad girl. But momma taught me to be content with what I got, so shopping sikit pon jadi lah.

Last Friday saw me at Efy's place for her house-warming. We spent the time there watching horror movie. So the funny seeing reactions/faces of the people lor. I talk so much padahal I also the same. But I is tetap maintain the cool. HAHAHA. The night ended with us sending Eza to the bus-stop where we waited for the non-existing bus number 8 because apparently the bus services ended at 2307 and we were at the bus-stop only at 2320 onwards. HAHA. We are so kental, please.

Today I slept oh-so-soundly throughout the day, only waking up because Momma said they were going out to eat. I think if she didn't mentioned that fact, I'd prolly sleep till the next day. Food overrides everything, please. Oh, my sister made some discoveries on the cyber world. Who the hell copies the whole of another person's entry onto her own blog? Prangai loser. Oh yah, that reminds us of someone, doesn't it? So kids, morale of the story, get some originality okeh? I mean why do you wanna be in the shadows of somebody else? We are unique individuals so please use that wisely.

Alright enough of rants. Note to self: get your poster printed ah babi.

So you see, I'm supposed to be studying for my test later or finish up my poster but (!) my mind's totally dsyfunctional. My body's shutting down and all I can think of is java frappe with one espresso shot. So tempting to leave class without presenting because honestly, me don't give a flying fuck about today's module. I just want to get the test over and done then go home.

ITMUSTBETHEREDBULL.ITMUSTBE!

I feel like I'm trapped in an 80-year old body, I get aches so easily! My lower back has been screaming for mercy. My feets, oh my feets, they are sore beyond comprehension. My eyes (!) are forming layers and layers of dark circles. My soul's very, very, very drained out. Oh Lord, bestow upon me your strength to survive for a couple more days before jumping straight to dysfunctional mode.

As if school hasn't been draining enough, I still have my poster to be done, submitted and approved before I can go print them out. Three tests scheduled this week, madness! They love pulling these kind of stunts the week before holidays or when we have a deadline to meet. The usual friendly games and trainings which are enough to leave me dog-tired. It doesn't help that I'm bleeding down under and it came rather unexpectedly which kind of left me in disarray because so much things to do, I don't need another surprise, thank you.

Oh, what tough luck.

Nebo Touch Competition 2008

I've come to the point where I do not want to care neither do I want to know. Just like a song on loop, you'll just grow out of certain things. And right now, I'm rolling out of this sticky-icky situation. I've never really liked ambiguity anyway no matter how intriguing it can get sometimes.

I love lazy days. Days where you don't give a damn about what the world thinks; you come to school in shorts and a t-shirt, hair all messed up without powder in your face. You flick a finger to the world if they eye you down because simply, you know that you've got so much to give, it's just a matter of whether you want to give.

A happy Monday is when you ditched school with lovely company, had your favourite breakfast, did constructive work like getting started on your poster, caught a humorous chick-flick in the theatres, sitting down/laughing around over dinner and ending it off with retail theraphy. A mixture of fun and work, eh?

Loved yesterday. We should do this more often, minus the skipping of school =)

Saturday saw me waking up early to head over to Yishun for an event. The kids were adorable, I swear. Especially this little girl called Jessica, think she’s a mixed because she looks like Eurasian with Chinese features. Work is a-okay, who wouldn’t like an easy job with an easy pay, right? And all I do is entertain those kids =)

Was supposed to head over to Rahil’s place for her housewarming but when I reached home, everybody was napping. The temptation was too strong to resist so I ended up shutting my eyes as well. When I eventually woke up, I was too lazy liaox.

Sunday was Nebo Touch Competition over at SP where we lugged home $100 worth of sports voucher, clinched 2nd placing under the 23s Women’s category and awesome goodie bags. I think we loved the goodie bag more than the medal itself because silver’s such an ugly color, ha-ha. The whole event ended at 6 and we wasted no time getting our asses out of that place because we were so tired and sore. 5 of us cabbed down from Dover to Bedok which was totally worth it since we only had to pay 3.50 per person. Dinner with Eza first before heading home to my littlest love and his antics and the warmth of my family’s presence.

That was my weekend, how was yours?

Yesterday's entry talked about me making up for the late-comings last week. Today saw me strolling into class at 9 30 in the morning when class actually starts at 8 30 AM. Semangat taik ayam onlyyyy!

But cannot blame me okay. I had my reasons. (1) Training ended super late last night that Eza and I didn't even bother to shower and headed home immediately (2) My coach made us do the drills over and over again with little breaks in between because some of them just couldn't get the bloody moves when we've been revising them since forever? Sepak y'all one time, wake up your idea. HAHAHA (3) Lowerback was being sucha bitch that I couldn't even lie down and not wince in pain as a result I went online and became one angsty slut, complain, complain, complain and lost track of time leading to an overrun in sleeping time which y'all should know by now, results to what? WAKING UP LATE.

Some more, some more! Accounting test after school which I think I'm prolly gonna flunk anyway because if you don't already know, accounting and me don't go hand in hand. What a bad way to end the week, damn!
I hate accouting, period.

But y'know what cures a bad day? A warm tight hug from your best friend, telling you that everything's gonna be fine =)

After school activities spent with Efy & Eza eating youuuuuuu-mian and talking about mindless stuffs! My favourite past-time. Efy went to meet her prospective mother-in-law while Eza and I rode down the library and got ourselves books.

Okay gotta go get ready for my date with Sophie Kinsella.
Till later, babies.

It's so much easier faking through pain. You should try it. Every time you feel down, keep telling yourself it's gonna be fine even though you know that things aren't going to be. Make believe, they say. After some time your mind would really believe that you're fine, no? That's what I'm good at, being heck-care and in the state of denial. It works when you have a simple mind like I do although I love thinking way too much on the unnecessaries like for example, whenever I board the bus, I'd think of an evacuation plan just in case the bus crashes or caught fire. Paranoia, I think? HAHA.

Anyway, I was super early for school, reached class 8 05 to be exact. Boy, am I such a diligent student! Okay was kidding only. I think I wanted to make up for last week. You should see my daily grades. I have -0.5 beside every of my grades because I came late every single day of last week. Sucha bad habit, I can't scrub off. School was a-okay. The classmates make it a whole lot bearable, hah.

Oh, I scared Yi Han while he was at the water cooler just now. His expression was so classic and he hit me on the head almost instantenously due to the shocked factor. Painful, y'know. Stupid boy. And y'all should stop thinking that he and I have something going on because we really don't (!!) I'm very much in love with myself and money, heh.

Right now I'm waiting for time to tick tock tick tock till 7 o'clock for my training. I heard that we are banned from using the field for two weeks, damn! I guess I have to say hello to the lousy field beside Koufu and physical training soon. Aiyayaiyai.

Abg Fadly's putting me in the work schedule for the weekends.
YAY(!!) I smell money, honey.

After class ended earlier, a fellow classmate posed a question to the facilitator.

Student A:Facy, you overshot (the lesson) by 10 minutes. That means next week we can come lessons 10 minutes late okay.
Facilitator: You can't blame me if you all can't digest the information fast.

At this point, another student rebutted.

Student B: So now you're blaming it on us la? Then like that I have to blame my great, great, great, great grandfather and their great, great, great, grandfathers for giving me the chance to be here and giving us the genes(brains) ar?

HAHAHAHAHA.
My classmates are interesting.

And hello world, past couple of days have been great.
The return of normalcy, keeping myself in check, familiar faces with conversations for comfort and people (whom I least expected) coming up to check on me.

I love.

This is how I feel; silly.
I swear I've never felt so kental in my entire life.

I just realised. I haven't talked about my raya, have I?

Oh don't worry. It's just the mundane stuffs. Visiting from relatives, receiving of green packets though it has decreased tremendously from the previous years because I look way too old for green packets like that! Not fair. I am only eighteen and have barely passed my 2nd year in polytechnic lor. But nehminds, I tak akan ambil hati okay pasal I is banyak punya besar hati. HAHA I bedek, one. Everytime people go back, check pocket to see how much they give me. HAHAHA prangai budak kecik sia.

Anyways I don't have to do much visiting because that's the advantage living with your grandpapa; everybody comes to you =) and it did came with a price. You have to count heads, serve drinks and food, and when they have made their move, you clear their glasses and plates away. The life of an anak dara, enslaved to the fate and whims of their motherships.

Apart from all that, raya is somewhat boring. I just cannot wait to go out with my friends.
Confirm plus chop gerek to the maximo.

I ditched class today because I'm too cool for school, yaw.

Nah, actually I was just plain lazy and simply too exhausted to want to try and wake up. Buttttt, I did go to school just to take a bloody test though. Travel all the way to Woodlands for just 30 minutes. Worth it? You decide. As you can see, we all have our own perspectives.

Speaking of which, I've come to a firm conclusion that people in relationships always change. I thought there was still salvation but nah-uh, they will change. This not only apply to y'all but it will most prolly apply to me in the future although there's still this glimpse of hope at one dark corner of my heart wishing otherwise.

So you happy-happy lovers stay happy while I am going to drool over my Macdreamy.

Yes, Grey's Anatomy is back on air! *throws confetti*
I love, love, love it except the whole whiny and uncool Meredith.

See I told you. Relationship changes people.

I've never liked this period, the eve of Raya because it meant a lot of chores. Furnituresto shift, windows to wipe and food to cook. Well technically I'm not the one cooking but I gotta help out in the preparation which totally suck balls. My feets are sore from all the standing, my hands stink from all the prawn-peeling and my body's aching from all the cleaning. My dad's not back from work and when he does, he's prolly gonna scream at us because the living room is still in a mess and the floor's unmopped. I am so sleepy I am just gonna fall asleep at this desktop but I shan't because it meant double screamings from the parental unit and you should know that my father's deadliest weapon is his naggings. He defeats my mother, hands down.

I am gonna take a short nap then mop the bloody floor. Before I go, I like to take this opportunity to extend my apologies if I had offended y'all intentionally or unintentionally throughout any course of actions, when I was blunt and bitchy or when I carried a joke too far. Forgive my flaws and "halalkan" makan minum I ehhhh.

Selamat Hari Raya!