I want my own place with no restrictions and away from annoyance when I need peace and time alone.

Dear 'you', shut up already?

It has always been that case - there's always someone better to choose over. Be it relationship or friendship, I'm only the option and never really the priority.

But I never meant to hurt you, I know it's time that I learn to treat the people I love like I wanna be loved. This is a lesson learnt, I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it. I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah. And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken so don't tell me you can't forgive me cos' nobody's perfect.

I plonked myself on the floor the minute I got home and have stayed here since then. I am EXHAUSTED.

Constant battle with the commuters during rush hour, climbing stairs to the different levels (the staff lift
takes forever because it's the only lift that's operating currently), 8 hours of being cooped up in the four white walls hearing attentively as your trainer loads you with information and going up the hills daily to get to food!

The only consolation I've telling myself is that all these hardship will pay off. My ass will be firm from all those stair-climbing! The hills are good for digestion. Eat then exercise, you won't grow fat then ;)

I'm starting to think platonic opposite-gender friendships are hard to sustain because at one point in time you'll end up falling in love with the idea of him being around, always. You start getting emotionally attached and feel the things that aren't supposed to be there. You'll make up images in your head about the different possibilities of you and him. It'll always end up terrible though because as much as you think of how awesome it'd be to have a best friend for a boyfriend, you don't want to risk the friendship. Or you start thinking about how the others will react to this sudden interest and you'll end up freaking out because WHAT IF THEY DON'T THINK ON THE SAME PAGE AS YOU AND WHEN THINGS DON'T WORK OUT, THEY'D BE THE FIRST TO TELL YOU "I told you so".

And after all that built-up hopes you get from picturing all those possibilities, you end up having to convince yourself that even though you might have feelings, it isn't always necessary to act upon them.

See, I told you it never ends out well.

Accept your reality.
Be present. Be bold.
Create something exciting.
Drink plenty of water. Dance.
Exercise daily. Eat fresh foods.
Feel your emotions. Face fear.
Go outside and observe nature. Give.
Hug often. Help others.
Ignite your passions.
Jump through your comfort zone.
Kiss passionately. Keep looking forward.
Laugh. Love. Learn to let go.
Meditate daily. Make goals.
Never give up on what you want.
Own a pet. Observe beauty.
Pray. Paint. Play and instrument.
Quit a bad habit. Quiet your mind.
Read. Relax. Reinvent yourself.
Smile. Sleep. Simplify.
Take power naps. Talk wisely.
Unleash your strengths.
Vent. Visualize your dreams.
Walk. Write. Watch the sun set.
Xerox your smiling face.
Yell less. Yield to your thoughts.
Zap negativity.