Screw it all. People are always gonna talk whether you do good or bad. That's what I've come to terms to this week. It's VERY exhausting trying to keep up by playing nice because you want to incorporate a good relationship. What's the point? When you're nice, people think you have hidden agenda. When you mind your own business, they say you are aloof and a passive team member.

So forget it, screw all of it. I'mma just do me.

Always caught in between want and need. Can I just screw all my responsibilities and take a break? I've come to the stage where I'm constantly mad, at myself. Everyday I question why the hell I put up with such conditions and give my best when at the end of the day, it's not enough. Why am I sacrificing the things I love in the pursuit of life?

I know what I have to do but why each time I take a step forward, I end up taking two steps back and re-analyzing the whole situation again. Ugh.

“This is very important — to take leisure time. Pace is the essence. Without stopping entirely and doing nothing at all for great periods, you’re gonna lose everything…just to do nothing at all, very, very important. And how many people do this in modern society? Very few. That’s why they’re all totally mad, frustrated, angry and hateful.”

"The easiest way to not get hurt is to not care. But that’s the hardest thing to do."

Another heart-wrenching moment today. Hold on, make that two. It has honestly been a terrible half of the year, not only for myself but also for the people around me. Strained relationships, broken hearts and people leaving. What's next on the list?

Better days hurry up (!) and put us all in good places. Something that is deserving of us. After all pain is only temporary and what doesn't kill you will (damn right) make you stronger. Can't lose faith now!