I didn't know how I was going to contain it all in so I texted one of my girls and the takeaways from our conversation are as follows:

1. We are all fighting our own battle.

2. We need to focus on the good in life.

3. I need to stop gaining and start running. 

I would have gone into details but I am really a whole lot of lazy right now. But the above is good enough to serve as a reminder when the going gets tough. 

Never want to feel like this again.