For someone in my position, I sure am taking it lightly. I'm not fighting or striving, I'm just here waiting, wishing and I know it isn't right but I'm not causing you distress nor am I'm bothering you with my woes so stop putting thoughts in my mind. Just stop telling me what to do and stop expecting me to conform to your beliefs/expectations. Stop telling me things I already know because I clearly understand the consequences of my actions and I know what I'm setting myself up for.

I will do right by myself eventually sooner or later - stop worrying and let me do me.